Harder is Better

Working out harder and harder seems to bring more and more peace. With the new bike in the mix, I've upped the anty. Things seem to be particularly difficult right now so I am changing the routine a bit. Tonite, I ran five and biked 6 miles. Its not the most I've done but it was a weeknight with work preceeding so it was substantial. Tomorrow is my half day from work so I plan to make it an intense work out day. Lately I've spent too much time obsessing on what is going on in other people's lives instead of obsessing on what is going on in my own. My focus shifted but its time to bring the lens back into perspective. Tomorrow morning will start off with some domestic responsibilities. I've cleaned off my plate to allow most of the afternoon for running, biking and martial arts class. I hope to have some time (and energy) left to do some work on the bag here at the house as well. My one indulgence will be a trip to the nail salon. Lol, funny, doesn't seem to fit in but its a needed distraction.

Now that I've knocked off a few 5k's and have a 10k in the near future, I'm tweeking the whole training plan. Might be time to think about the possibility of the holy grail...a triathalon. I've spent the last 9 months building myself up but the reality of it is that right now, my training plan isn't really "challenging" me. I meet all my current goals without pulling on extra resources and its time I start doing that again. Things have been tough for me emotionally this last month and instead of leaning on my workout therapy, I've been trudging through it. If the emotional pull is getting tougher, than I need to get stronger so that I can pull against it and away from it even.

I have so many wonderful things in my life. I have been finding it too easy to look back on the awful things I don't have in my life anymore and have actually had the gaul to long for them. Sick and twisted, very unhealthy. Time to focus on kicking my own ass FORWARD!!!