Trying Times

I've been a total bitch today. I suppose the frustration of not being able to run, at a time when running is crucial to upcoming events, is spilling over into other aspects of my daily life. Yes, I've been biking and doing yoga etc. etc., but I can only compare it to chewing gum when you are trying to quit smoking. It tides you over but you aren't "satisfied." I hated EVERYONE today but most of all, I hated ME. Patience has never been one of my stronger suits and today I've felt as though EVERYTHING has required patience that I just couldn't afford. All my patience was tied up in the unconscious act of healing,,,waiting to heal. There was none left for anything else. My apologies to those I love sound hollow. I am sorry but when all this frustration is about to boil over it is hard to sound sincere, even if I am. The sad part is mostly I'm sorry for myself and that is not a state I like one bit.

So I'm being pro-active. I'm gonna hit the bag for the next twenty odd hours if that is what it takes. I need an upper body work out anyway and a way to exercise some collecting demons. Here's to better days to come!