Obstacles

The massage therapy appointment was not as positive as I'd hoped. It appears as though muscles in my right calf (gastro & soleus) are torn. She likened my calf to "hamburger." She worked on the calf for the full hour and kneisio-taped it. I am supposed to do yoga and cross training only (actually the ideal was to rest for 10 days but that isn't possible) till Monday when I get it re-taped. Have an ortho appointment for Wednesday. If he concurs then he may or may not be able to "inject" it. Without knowing the actual severity, the healing potential is nothing but guesswork.

I suppose I could get really negative but I'm not going to. This was never going to be "easy" so the fact that its gotten a little harder shouldn't be all that off putting. Even injured, I am sure I can finish. If I have to crawl, I will. Finishing this martathon is the tangible act of finishing a lot more than just this one thing. It is very symbolic to me. Granted, "power walking" across the line wasn't really part of my personal imagery BUT aren't many things in life different in the end than what we pictured at the onset? Its a rather ironic metaphor!

People close to me have been amazingly encouraging and I am heeding their kind words. I will be in SCOTLAND! A place I have been trying to get to for THIRTY years! Is is such a bad thing for me to slow down and savor the experience?

Today was a rest day. Rest and re-group. 4:30 am brings yoga and core work with biking or swimming to follow in the pm. This is how athletes think :)