Sundays

For a while, I used to try to make Sundays a day where I had nothing to do. I could lay in if I wanted or read but the goal was to have no responsibilities to answer for. Well, that ended up me being trapped in the house letting the dog in and out all day so it took me a while to figure out it was not an ideal plan! Its fine for once in a while but not something I need EVERY Sunday!

I've stepped up my training and can honestly say that today, for the first time, I'm not so much sore as I am "stiff". I didn't move freely when I crawled out of bed this morning which I am counting as a victory. Next week the schedule intensifies further as a friend and I begin amping up our training in addition to fitting up my daughter for upcoming volleyball try outs. I suspect sore will be an understatement next week if plans hold out. Additionally, for the week after, we have planned to invest in mats for the carport so that we can train for martial arts outside of class. Two to three weeks of pain is promised, not implied!

I have friends who ask, "What are you doing all of this for, its not like you are going to the Olympics at your age?" I guess I love what the workout does for me. I suppose it is a sort of sickness in a way. I love who I am now and that I have tangible goals. Maybe those goal don't include going to the Olympics but they are milestones for me to reach for and are no less spectacular in the scheme of my life. Today's society overcomes so many emotional burdens is so many un-constructive ways. Therapy, prescription drugs, illicit drugs, alcoholism, the list is endless. Accidentally, I've found a postive outlet for my issues! I'm not spaced out on some heavily televised prescription drug that makes me numb to what I feel. Yeah, I still feel things and sometimes that is negative but I don't want or need to STOP feeling everything! I need to find ways to deal with what I feel and appropriate ways to place it in my mind. Training does that for me.

Ok, so maybe this is like therapy. I have one person who joined my post, so I guess YOU count as my therapist lol. Realistically, it would'nt matter if no one ever read the post but me. Posting it only makes me accountable for continuing to add to it and build upon it for future reference. Its mostly babble but that is ok, its constructive. There are always bumps in the road, raindrops to dodge. There always will be. I am stronger than I was 6 weeks ago. I was driven to my knees but now I'm standing up. Every so often someone or something will try to take me out again emotionally. I just have to stay strong enough to keep moving forward. When I am strong physically, emotional strength is a side effect. I have a 10 mile run on the training schedule today and in spite of the heat, I am eager to exceed that goal. Today I am very strong.